Is Love My Friend?

Interesting… I was walking through my mind and suddenly saw that, I got my own vice that I have to escape. Impressive is that it’s all about love. The question is who am I to love?! I’m just a guy… young by mind and who likes a lot to LOVE.
Haha… funny… I’m obsessed with the word or it’s just a bad point about me?! Not sure but I think I don’t know how to love and to share this love in the way everybody does.
As books say, if you want get to the maximum calm watch how the rain hits the ground and number how many times she hits it, or a simple way if you are depressed just number all the hits that made you cry… lol… I can’t believe I’m my own bad subject, now I know I’m not good at this word “LOVE”.
Parents, what are they to tell us what to do… a question all children put, well they just try to make you not dream like I do, they try to show you that future will get you down if you live through dreams…
I thought till today, I got a very good friend near God…. But seems I only got a dream about how love was and it is not today… I wish I could wake up somehow cause this dream made me feel older, made me see to much evil around…
In the end, I’m going to sit on my knees and beg for a friend, not love cause LOVE HURTS…. I tough that’s all I want but now I’m lost….

Time has past

It's interesting how life passes by with no damage left behind, with low memories about beautiful moments... I should start to believe we are really living in a dream, because what we wish from our heart has a huge possibility to be accomplished...now to get to the real point, my summer started very weird best things happened spontaneous others just passed by as a simple picture of the moment It's funny how friends can help you when you don't need but let you down at the moment when you could fall down and lose your mind, not speaking about the parents... they accidentally become more nervous, the patience and the chi between them is negative, ideas become a fight, but everything it's just in our minds, when summer goes off we forget everything and we become same happy, or partially happy family.. The best thing for me as a young boy, is to be optimistic... as a priest told me: "smile to the evil with forgiveness" good combination and nice effect I tried and passed by through it with a new view upon the world.... I'm waiting my holiday to go on as my heart wishes for... I wait to see those that I believe, they are a part of me soul...