Jazz Contest

What a day, or I should say what a Friday... I've went there with some friends, and waitted my turn to sing those two songs whom got me the first prime, it was great I felt great but I still have to learn more and more to become a better singer...

Thoughts

Gee! Its great after being out late, walking my baby back home... Funny those words make me laugh and dream about a beautiful life... its interesting I like dream all the time, as others say dreams are, for me the second world where I live. I wander, how can I combine does dreams, I can't always accomplish my dreams...
it doesn't matter I will keep on dreaming those fairytales, and does heroes I still wanna become even if those are dreams, they make me be optimistic. What I like the most is that I keep dream my friends, I love helping them, cossideting them a family it's a good thing for me. I going for a dream, I'm gonna scream for it...

Where I am

Lost, that's the word that had started to define me... I got lost in myself, I got lost in this world and I can't find out what keeps me there and who could get me out. Anyway I'm still searching on the corners and cleaning my own viruses a tremendous task but still I have to do it for my own good. Jazz it’s one of my cures from these stressing activities I’m doing....
The youth of today is so different from what our parents and the books tell us, but we don’t understand one thing... we are the only one who can save us from us... I’m sorry for repeating the word but it has a big meaning in this life, as most of you know, together the power is much stronger, and we can dominate the communists and the adults who keep making us being more unculturised... I have to recognise that I’m hiding from something and that keeps making me be shy, I think I’m still the little dog who searches for know lodge more and forgets about the experience of practicing...
Life through books makes me feel much better, that’s why I still like reading, making poetries it’s a hobby that I stand to achieve…. I suppose I’m trying to run from life if I’m doing so many things, but still I’m waiting for someone who can open my eyes through my heart so I can stand still through this life and prosper for family and my own happiness.

Wishes

I was staying on my bed in this middle day, and suddenly passed through my mind a thing " What are my wishes?" interesting question to be asked... So now I'm trying to think and answer myself as much as I can... right now, I'm trying to figure out what a 18 years old guy like me would need... but I dunno what I should wish, I mostly like seeing my friends smiling, I like life when music sounds harmonically, and I like people who know what is to really have fun.
hmmz.. I think I talked to much so I'm gonna go sing a song... see you next time!!

This filthy smoking....

So that's it I got to this subject to, the inspiration was exactly my dead a realy often smoker, geez... what's so interesting about smoking?, from my point of view I'd better spend my money on ecomomies then spend them on something that make's me be bored. I remember first time when I tried a cigarette, I was in 7th class, near the CFR Stadion with my cousin and a guy, I smoked a bit, but after I told my dad about it, i figured out that smoking makes no use..
When I got in the 9th class, my colleagues tried to make me smoke and still I was just fooling around with them.. even now I still remember how Cezar was happy I smoked a bit, but still next day I was refusing, I supose those who don't know what to do with their life can smoke, I won't try to stop them.
I think that the cigarettes it's just a vice, a way of suicide/torture inside without dieing immediately... I have to recognize that because of my friends I'm a passive smoker , when I see all the smoke around me from them I'm starting to feel bored, but that's what they have chosen for the free time, I saw I can't stop them so I gave up trying...

My trust for all...

What am I, to whom I can trust? This are just two questions that I keep asking myself sometimes... is it there a friend I can count on, is there a shoulder I can cry on, are there some eyes through I can hide, is there a heart for me?... I call for it, I am searching it, I even sing for it, last time I even wrote and spoked about it... but, she doesn't answer me, I've grown weaker, I'm lost in shadows... Who can get me back, save me? I'm hurt , even forced to be violent and evil... I'm starting to see how other need help and I'm trying anything for them... but who we are to keep doing this, why are we doing this? Aren't we good enough to stand by?
I'm tired, my eyes have gone darker, I look to the Moon, and I beg her,I call her, I thought my heart it's infinite, thought I can love everybody at same level, even thought I can protect all my friends... but as always I forgot about me, I've gone lost in my own jungle, and I think no one will even try to get me out of it.... my eyes are closing I'm falling, my view is gone I'm a fire that keep burns...

Why a pierce... for what?

Out on the street, on to the first corner you go and see a girl with a pierce in her right part of the mouth, it was big and it made her look ugly. Very strange even if it looks ugly she doesn't even care about it.... passing by her,I asked" do you like what you got?" but she answers" are you stupid!",seems she doesn't know her image, she looks awful ... she runs of afterwords... I still can't figure out what we gain by doing this piercing ?, some say that's how we hide our hate, some say that's how we punish from our sins.It's not helpful this to stop what happens between some of us, I think socialization it's one of the keys we need.
I got colleges that you could ask " hey, why you got pierce?", the answer comes like this " it's fashionable".... well if they say it's fashionable to be an irrational animal, seems we all go down one by one ... we are changing our gens man becomes women and viceversa...
We are living on a disintegrated planet,on our own bomb, destructing us without even knowing why we do it and how... at least I;'d tell myself where to but a pierce to don't show ugly because of some motive,I don't wanna look like a pig ... I'm afraid of what we are starting to create we are like nanobots who destroy almost everything in their way...
I'd recommend you to find a day, to look in the mirror, and at least once try be yourself don't hide behind this things... and be careful who you name as a friend and who to follow, because is it possible to see your wrong, but just when it's to late, don't forget no one can judge you for what you are....