Fun daydreaming thoughts

Ho ho ho, marry cheese mass… lolls I’m having fun today, suddenly noticed I have discovered new things and new parts that my friends were hiding, or I think I was making them hide those parts, gladly I wish to change in a better one so I can se more. I believe that now I will see all the world with other eyes, well could be a combination of reality with some ideas of mine because I still like fulfilling my wishes so I will try hard to gain all that I lost in my childhood years… especially speaking about music, I adore singing jazz so I will continue to evolve as fast as I can so I can walk through world and spread my happiness through it, and I won’t forget about my friends, I still have to apologise from most of them cause I didn’t saw faster how ruddily I acted so far when they tried to get to know me somehow in their ways, but I have to mention they have weird ways, not using the simple ones and that made me see so late all this “black bubbles” that appears on my mind bath… I wish everybody to have confidence and faith in their needs and dreams, someday or somehow few of them will surely come true and they will be very happy after….

Wandering… people’s life

Hehe… I’m back… this time with some new things because I passed through a new level of my life, or at least, that’s what I think. In the holidays I had this year I saw people who can help me and people who just don’t want to know me because, well, they say I’m crazy). But as some old people said, we can’t change for everybody, I can’t be perfect, but if you want me to change just tell me what’s so wrong at me and I will try change it…
Funny this are just words I’m saying, that’s what you’ll think at first reading, well words mean something words give something and words can even take something from each, isn’t that right?! For the first time in my life I admit that I will stop analysing my activities all day, The blog will be enough, sometimes analysing all the time, makes others to don’t like you or just don’t want more from you, I know examples but I will speak just generally right now.
First thing I liked most at this year, it’s that between high school and ASTRU activities I’ve discovered the Retezat Mountains and a bit of “holiday love” it feels funny it’s so easy to love for a short period of time without being hurt after the time passes and you split up from that person… eh… hope I’m not getting to much in use with that. In the mean time my heart opened old doors trying to reactivate some old feelings, now I’m still thinking, should I follow my heart or just try to refuse her, together with the idea that the person will never want to be with me… neah, I think I’m dreaming right now, but keep in touch, I will come back later with something new, hopefully.

Is Love My Friend?

Interesting… I was walking through my mind and suddenly saw that, I got my own vice that I have to escape. Impressive is that it’s all about love. The question is who am I to love?! I’m just a guy… young by mind and who likes a lot to LOVE.
Haha… funny… I’m obsessed with the word or it’s just a bad point about me?! Not sure but I think I don’t know how to love and to share this love in the way everybody does.
As books say, if you want get to the maximum calm watch how the rain hits the ground and number how many times she hits it, or a simple way if you are depressed just number all the hits that made you cry… lol… I can’t believe I’m my own bad subject, now I know I’m not good at this word “LOVE”.
Parents, what are they to tell us what to do… a question all children put, well they just try to make you not dream like I do, they try to show you that future will get you down if you live through dreams…
I thought till today, I got a very good friend near God…. But seems I only got a dream about how love was and it is not today… I wish I could wake up somehow cause this dream made me feel older, made me see to much evil around…
In the end, I’m going to sit on my knees and beg for a friend, not love cause LOVE HURTS…. I tough that’s all I want but now I’m lost….

Time has past

It's interesting how life passes by with no damage left behind, with low memories about beautiful moments... I should start to believe we are really living in a dream, because what we wish from our heart has a huge possibility to be accomplished...now to get to the real point, my summer started very weird best things happened spontaneous others just passed by as a simple picture of the moment It's funny how friends can help you when you don't need but let you down at the moment when you could fall down and lose your mind, not speaking about the parents... they accidentally become more nervous, the patience and the chi between them is negative, ideas become a fight, but everything it's just in our minds, when summer goes off we forget everything and we become same happy, or partially happy family.. The best thing for me as a young boy, is to be optimistic... as a priest told me: "smile to the evil with forgiveness" good combination and nice effect I tried and passed by through it with a new view upon the world.... I'm waiting my holiday to go on as my heart wishes for... I wait to see those that I believe, they are a part of me soul...

Jazz Contest

What a day, or I should say what a Friday... I've went there with some friends, and waitted my turn to sing those two songs whom got me the first prime, it was great I felt great but I still have to learn more and more to become a better singer...

Thoughts

Gee! Its great after being out late, walking my baby back home... Funny those words make me laugh and dream about a beautiful life... its interesting I like dream all the time, as others say dreams are, for me the second world where I live. I wander, how can I combine does dreams, I can't always accomplish my dreams...
it doesn't matter I will keep on dreaming those fairytales, and does heroes I still wanna become even if those are dreams, they make me be optimistic. What I like the most is that I keep dream my friends, I love helping them, cossideting them a family it's a good thing for me. I going for a dream, I'm gonna scream for it...

Where I am

Lost, that's the word that had started to define me... I got lost in myself, I got lost in this world and I can't find out what keeps me there and who could get me out. Anyway I'm still searching on the corners and cleaning my own viruses a tremendous task but still I have to do it for my own good. Jazz it’s one of my cures from these stressing activities I’m doing....
The youth of today is so different from what our parents and the books tell us, but we don’t understand one thing... we are the only one who can save us from us... I’m sorry for repeating the word but it has a big meaning in this life, as most of you know, together the power is much stronger, and we can dominate the communists and the adults who keep making us being more unculturised... I have to recognise that I’m hiding from something and that keeps making me be shy, I think I’m still the little dog who searches for know lodge more and forgets about the experience of practicing...
Life through books makes me feel much better, that’s why I still like reading, making poetries it’s a hobby that I stand to achieve…. I suppose I’m trying to run from life if I’m doing so many things, but still I’m waiting for someone who can open my eyes through my heart so I can stand still through this life and prosper for family and my own happiness.